It could happen.

Ok, now that we have given ourselves full permission
to just see what happens, I have ignored that I am on
the white beads of the Cycle Beads (meaning that it is
likely I could get pregnant on these days). Although,
I don't think I have ovulated or will ovulate this
month. I don't even know if it was a real period I got
or if it was just bleeding for 2 weeks caused by
starting the real pill. But, now that I am off I guess
we will see. Because I may not have gotten my period
before because I was on the mini-pill. I just don't
think that my one a day nursing session for maybe 5
minutes could really keep it away. But, it is likely.
Some days I don't even nurse at all. Only time will
tell. Only 14 more days will tell.

Anyway, the point of this was to say: We are getting
excited. In fact, last night I picked out a name. I
know. I know. A bit premature. Seeing as how a. I'm
not yet pregnant. b. Boy or girl? Who knows. But, I
have a name. And this morning I told Mr. Sweets and he
couldn't help but smile and love it.

I really had all these thoughts going on in my mind.
People saying, "You gotta start trying when he's one."
or "No! Wait till he's almost two. They should be 2
1/2 years apart." "Really you should wait till he's
3."

All this "advice" and really none of it matters. It
just doesn't. Should I get pregnant now or next month,
yeah they'll have birthdays right around the same
time, but it's up to me to make it special. I mean
twins have the same birthday, right? Anyway, this is
all premature and it may take me months. I just know
that we are ready for whenever it is to be.
(Even if I am at my skinniest weight yet and have to
gain it all back.) I must say, I am thankful for the
breastfeeding. Can they bottle that up as a weight
loss drug?

Ah. I just feel excited about it. I get excited when I
am with families with lots of kids or when I am with
adult siblings and their parents. I think of the day
that we are with our children and they are grown. I
think of Logan with a little brother or sister. He is
so happy with other kids and I just can't wait to have
more.

Maybe because I was an only child, I am super excited
for all the craziness it will entail. I look forward
to missing shoes and who took what squabbles. I think
of bath time with two and how much fun it will be. I'm
just so proud of Logan and everything that he does.
It's so exciting to think that we will do it again.

I think it also helps to know that I've got a pretty
good knack at this whole mom thing. I'm pretty proud
of myself. Mr. Sweets and I both are.

You're supposed to do the things you're good at,
right? Well, then...

We'll keep on adding.