Lover's Spat

My head feels like every capillary is trying so
hard to pump my blood, but that there are these little
fingers pinching and restricting it from flowing. In
understandable terms - I have a headache.
And it's big.

But, I think it is one of those "after the event"
headaches. The kind that you should have had while you
were stressed and upset, but instead get as the after
effect when all is ok and back to normal.

My Mr. Sweets and I had a bit of a tiff. And this came
after he just got back in town from business. It was over something very minor, but a big deal to me. I am the one who will hold it in and then expect for my quiet behaviour to be recognized and consoled. And then when it doesn't, or I'm not obvious enough or he is playing the same game, it almost always comes out pretty hostile in the end and then the shit hits the fan and hashed out and then all is fine and back to normal.

But, here's the thing. Our tiffs, which are few and
far, are always about something really stupid. I mean
if you look back on them, you would really laugh. It
makes me wonder. Am I too sensitive? Cause really, I
don't know. Maybe we are both too sensitive at times. Because for the most part we are not and then there are those times where we can just say the slightest thing or give a look and our feelings are shattered.

Anyway, without getting into it too much, I basiclly had my feelings hurt and he probably didn't even realize it. So I emailed him, since we are here at the office. And he emailed back that I was absoultely right and the apology and all. Then a few minutes later came his email. He had to get into it too. Then I emailed back. And back and forth it went. I felt kind of giddy sitting in our separate offices while everyone goes on working and we sit here with intent and purposeful looks on our face as if we are really into a project and really we are just sweetly venting back and forth.

My goal has been to just write when I get upset, because it never leads to an argument that way.

Sometimes you need these times to make everything so much better.