And just like that . . .
My son is one year old! I am the mother of a toddler.
Somewhere along the path of questioning every poop and
burp, I became a mother that is, for the most part,
relatively relaxed and oddly enough - ready to do it again.
Well, I am ready and I am not ready. During the
regular routine day I am ready. But, then during the
nostalgic music listening, picture flipping moments I
am not sure if I am ready. I will be so sad or maybe
sad isn't the word, but I will long for the days when
it was just our little boy and I don't mean that in a
bad way. I am overjoyed at the thought of trying to
have another baby and thinking of Logan as a big
brother, but I know that I will think back and miss
those days of it being just me and my boy.
Is it really possible that I will love another baby as
much? I know I will. I know it will be different, but
I just love this little boy so much it seems
impossible to love anything as much.
I know the day will come that I will write how much I
love the new little person, but for right now I will
enjoy every moment of Logan being an only child.
I put all of myself into Logan and it will be strange
to have another little person to share that with.
I am an only child, so I do not have hands on
experience of sharing my parents.
But, about my boy. I just can't beleive that I have this little person who crawls around the bathtub and stands up and plops down and splashes and lays on his belly and dips his face in the water. This from a tiny 7 pound little muffin who was content to just lay in an infant bathseat while his mother freaked out that she would drop the little slippery minnow.
Just one year. All that has happened in this year and bam - he's 1.
This mother's day is such a gift. I am so proud to be "ma ma". I am so proud to change dirty diapers and wipe drooly chins. I am so proud to kiss boo boos and dry tears. I am so proud to get food splashed over my brand new white peasant shirt. I am so proud to have put that smile on that face and the laughter into that soul. I am so proud to have given birth to a precious being 1 year ago. I am a mother and I am so proud of it.
posted by Best Known As Logan's Mom | 6:22 PM
4 Comments:
Happy Birthday to Logan! And happy one year of this to you!
Happy Birthday, Logan!!
And a special congratulations to Logan's mom- you made it through the first year!!
Can I ask you something? What did you think about being an only child? For a variety of reasons we're pretty sure that Lochlan's going to be an only child and while I really hope it didn't scar you for life and that you hated it- I wouldn't mind hearing some thoughts about that. If you had some time...
TTYL
Happy belated b-day Logan!!
WOW Summer...it's amazing how similar we are, even down to our thoughts. I too am an only child and know the importance of having a sibling, as that is the one thing in my life I feel I was lacking (oh, and a good Father would have been nice too).
Thanks! Whenever I mention to someone that Lochlan is probably going to be an only I generally get all the horror stories about how I'm going to scar him or how they were only children and hated it. It's nice to know that it CAN be a positive thing.
But, then, I guess having a baby we're not ready for wouldn't be good for our family anyway right?
Good luck with your thoughts on #2... I know you'll love another baby with all the depth that you love Logan. TTYL
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